Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Your Bench is Here!

Dear Kate and Riley,
The bench that Grandma Janice ordered for us for your first birthday is here. It is SO pretty and it looks perfect in our little front flower bed. I wasn't sure how I'd feel to walk by and see it every day but I really love it and it makes me happy and not sad. I love having a reminder of you for everyone who comes to our home to see. I know it will always be a special part of our home.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Could you help mom out a little?

Dear Kate and Riley,
Your little brother is THREE months old! He is getting bigger every day, I can't believe how fast it is going by. This time last year is when I first found out I was pregnant. It was such a scary time. This is where YOU come in. Little Zachary had been doing a GREAT job of sleeping right before Christmas. I was feeling GOOD and getting a lot done and just feeling all around happy. I thought you were doing a really good job of watching over your baby brother and helping him sleep well at night. Well, what happened!? Zachary has stopped sleeping at night. He is waking up every half hour to hour all night long. I am so tired! I don't know what to do so I was hoping you could help me out and come hang out in his room and remind him how to sleep for 8 hours in a row again!

As for other things, Zachary is more fun every day. He is laughing a lot and that is my favorite thing in the whole world. He is getting so big I think he might just skip over 3-6 month clothes. He just grew out of his 0-3 clothes in the past week or so but now the 3-6 are already looking a little small! He rolled over from his tummy to his back too, I think it was an accident but we'll just call him "advanced" for now.

Other than trying to get Zachary to sleep, I am working hard at getting back into shape. After WAY too much time spent pregnant, I am a long way from the girl your dad married. There isn't much I can do about the stretch marks, but I am working on everything else. I got a jogging stroller for Christmas and Zach and I (and sometimes Bella) go running most days. (even the ones when I only get three hours of sleep!). Jessica is the one who got me into this mess and we started another blog about our running adventures here.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Merry Christmas

Dear Kate and Riley,
I hope you had a good second Christmas in heaven. We were thinking about you here. It was Zachary's first Christmas and it was much easier on mom than last year when your loss was so new and fresh. We talked about you and missed you but we felt your presence and knew you were watching over us. Grandma Janice got two little angel ornaments (I meant to take pictures but forgot). We put the ornaments on the tree on Christmas eve and remembered that you were watching over us. It was really special and made me really happy. I am glad we started that new tradition and am excited for the years when Zachary and his cousins are old enough to talk about you and put your angel ornaments on the tree on Christmas Eve.

This was also the first Christmas for your cousins, Summer and Ali. I haven't talked about them before because their arrival (only a few months after we lost you) was really hard for me. We were so excited for our two sets of twins and its hard now that you two aren't here. I am glad though that Zachary will have his twin cousins here so he will have a little taste of what it might have been like to have you around. It was crazy and fun to have all the babies at Grandma and Grandpa's and I can't imagine what it would have been like if you were here too!

Zachary was a little too little to know what was going on for Christmas but mom and dad had fun dressing him up like santa and opening his presents for him. He had fun with his aunts and uncles and started laughing a lot (uncle Clint was really good at getting him to) which was really fun.

Merry Christmas late my angels.